Spring Fever, Summer Love, Autumn Breeze, Winter Nights.

2008-06-19T16:55:00.005+09:30

19 on the 19th of June.

Once in a lifetime moment.

I'm relishing it.

THANK YOU ALL
FOR YOUR
BEAUTIFUL BIRTHDAY WISHES. :)

A girl is so lucky to have friends and family like you.

Hugs and Kisses,
Chrystal

2008-06-18T02:54:00.003+09:30

THROUGH THE EYES OF THE ANIMAL.

There was a stray cat in front of my house today.

I opened my door, and there it was, sipping water from the dripping tap. (yes, i turned it off immediately, don't get all environmentally conscious on me)

It heard the creak of the door and turned to face me.

Then, it just stared.
and for some reason, i stared back.
it's not me going crazy, its not that i was hoping i had telephatic abilities to mentally ask the cat to go away.

The cat's gaze just hooked.

Because i started to wonder, what do cats see?

How do we, humans look in the eyes of this animal, naturally wild but domesticated animal turned a stray? Are we the friend or foe?

By looking at me for a good 15 seconds, was it able to rationalise in its head if i was a threat, what was it thinking?

Then i gained my senses, and thought, "Chrystal, you're staring a cat." and after that 15 seconds, i got bored and closed the door.

A couple of hours later, dressed and ready to head of to dinner, i opened the door once more. Only to jump back when i saw the exact same cat right in front of the door.

I gave a LITTLE shriek, and the cat looked at me once again. And that's when i saw it. The look of recognition. The look that humans give each other when they see someone they know, that rings that bell in their memories. It was given to me by a feline. Stray, mind you.

Then, it took two steps to the side so i wouldn't step on it, and sat back down. I got into the car with ease.

Now, aren't cats supposed to run away from humans?
Don't we have that level of fear on them anymore? or are they capable of recognising human nature? Did that 15 second gaze of the cat allowed it to gather enough information that i was not going to hurt it? and that it was "welcome" to sit in front of my door?

I guess i'll never know.
But i'll keep on wondering until someone tells me. Maybe, they'll even answer it on the Discovery Channel.

When i got home, the cat was gone. Maybe it felt that it wore out its welcome.

Love, Chrystal.

* i'm waiting on the morning.

2008-05-30T16:27:00.002+09:30

Life, World, the Universe

is it true
that the hardest moments brings out the best in people?
it is when they fall so deep
into that black hole
it takes less than a twitch of an eyebrow
for a soul to shine.

funny how laughter can mean tears
sad how tears can justify emotions
it made me think,
does happiness signify a loss of grief
or the courage to move on.

what do emotions prove
but as a fill to the void
in the middle of the universe.

2007-10-05T19:16:00.000+09:30

The Earth Status report

If the population of the Earth was reduced to that of a small town with 100 people, it would be made up of this :

57% Asians
21% Europeans
14% Americans (northern and southern)
8% Africans

52% women
48% men

70% coloured-skins
30% Caucasians

89% heterosexuals
11% homosexuals

6 people would own 59% of the whole world wealth and all of them will be from the United States of America

80% would have bad living conditions
70% would be uneducated
50% underfed1 would die
2 would be born
1 would have a computer
1 (only one) will have higher education

This morning, if you woke up healthy, then you are happier than the 1 million people that will not survive next week.

If you never suffered a war,
the loneliness of the jail cell,

the agony of torture,

or hunger,

you are happier than 500 million people in the world.

If you can enter into a church / mosque without fear of jail or death, you are happier then 3 million people in the world.

If there is a food in your fridge,
you have shoes and clothes,
you have bed and a roof,
you are richer then 75% of the people in the world.

If you have a bank account, money in your wallet and some coins in the money-box,
you belong to the 8% of the people in the world, who are well-to-do.

If you read this you are three times blessed because:
you don't belong to the 200 million people that cannot read.

and, you have a COMPUTER!

Work, as if you don't need the money,
Love, as if you've never been hurt,
Dance, as if nobody can see you,
Sing, as if no one can hear,
Laugh, as if your world was a comedy
Live, as if the Earth was a heaven.

It is time to start LIVING

if you feel like all is lost, don't give up

there are still some among us who has hope, don't give up on them.

if this made you smile, you deserved it.

Love, Chrystal

2007-08-22T04:53:00.000+09:30

i've been tagged! ;)
...and i'm bored @ 3.36 a.m on a Wednesday morning.

How it works :
Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
With the answers, give your own comments on how they relate to the questions.

1) How are you feeling today?
Naive - Lily Allen.
maybe because i just finished reading 'Empress Orchid' by Anchee Min. every girl would feel naive compared to last Empress of China.

2) Will you get far in life?
The Weekend - Michael Gray.
as far as the weekend.. ? we'll always have weekends...so i'm hoping..pretty far ?

3) What's your bestfriend's theme song?
Breathe - Anna Nalick .
"2 am and she calls me cause i'm still awake..." sounds familliar..;) that's what friends are for..

4) What is the story of your life?
This Love - Maroon 5
"this love has taken a toll on me...." i guess my life revolves around <3

5) What was high school like?
California - Phantom Planet
"we've been on the run, driving in the sun, looking out for number one..."

6) How can you get ahead with life?
Shake it Off - Mariah Carey. enough said

7) Whats the best thing about your friends?
Breathe In - Lucie Silvas. "
breathe in life..breathe out..."
hmm, my bestfriend & friends have the word 'breathe' in common. i guess i have a certain type of friends...;)

8) Describe your grandparents.
Are You Happy Now - Michelle Branch
resolutions ?

9) How's your life going?
Here Is Gone - Goo Goo Dolls
"and i got my defenses when it comes through your intentions for me...."

10) What will be played at my funeral?
You're Loving Me For Me - Christina Aguilera
It does sound like a song that would be played at a funeral. the lyrics are beautiful, the music is slow..
"undeniably, you inspire me spritually.."

11) Will you have a happy life?
Sweet Child Of Mine - Guns N Roses
"reminds me of childhood memories..." i had a pretty good childhood..i'm taking it as a positive sign..

12) What do your friends really think of you?
Changes - 2 Pac
i change periodically...? :p

13) Do people secretly lust after you?
Hey Leonardo - Blessed Union of Souls
"i like her for her..not because she's phat like cindy crawford...." okay. you tell me. ;)

14) How can you make yourself happy?
Everything's Just Wonderful - Lily Allen
"Oh yes, I'm fine, everything's just wonderful, I'm having the time of my life.." spot on!

15) What should you do with your life?
Love on my Mind - Freemasons
" i got love on my mind...ain't no use in me wasting my time..." nah...:P

16) Will you ever have children?
Ai No Corrida - Laura More
translation : the realm of senses. i guess i will then. ;)

17) What song would you strip to?
Jumper - Third Eye Blind
talk about the most un-sexy song to strip to.

18) What does your mom thinks of you?
I Wanna Be A Cowboy - Kid Rock
interesting, my mum thinks i should be a cowboy..i wonder if there's a 21st century John Wayne i can learn from..

19) What is your deep, dark secret?
Sway - Perez Prado & Rosemary Clooney
"when marimba rhythm starts to play...dance with me..sway with me..."
not so secret anymore is it? ;)

20) What is your enemy's theme song?
I See Girls - Studio B
haha. maybe we just have different sexual preferences..

21) Whats your personality like?
My Goodies - Ciara
"You may look at me and think that I'm just a young girl...."

22) What will be played at your wedding?
Utopia (Where I Want To Be) - Stereo Star
this is so accurate ! the lyrics go "i finally found a place where i want to be...with you..."
only the background dance / electronic music may be a little too fast for the walk down the aisle. ;)

finished post @ 4.14 a.m
my dark circles will never forgive me now..

lotsa love,

chrystal

p/s : just a little message to commemorate Elvis Presley's 30th death anniversary.

1977-2007.

RIP The Legendary King of Rock & Roll... Our blue suede shoes & hound dogs mean so much more now..

2007-06-23T18:00:00.000+09:30

everybody has a passion.

some strive for greatness.

some strive for beauty.

some even strive to do absolutely nothing.

so we all have somewhere to go. a goal to achieve. it's commendable in a way, these people sure won't end up on the street.

but how about the people that have a dream.

but not the resources ?

how do we reach out and help them, when we are barely able to cling on to ours ?

it's what awaits us is the future.

that matters the most.

time. it'll take you there.

xoxox.

2007-03-03T15:45:00.000+10:30

Thought to ponder.

Why does the world seem to stop at that painful second, making it last for eternity?

i'll blog more soon. :)

xoxo

2007-02-22T01:28:00.000+10:30

Top 20 reasons why i have amazing friends

20. they don't care if i don't get their jokes

19. i don't care if they don't get my jokes

18. they share their ambitions with me ( hint* designer shoes and killer cars )

17. they are all gorgeous and good looking in their own super ways

16. they RULE at the game of TABOO

15. they'll tell you if you have stuff stuck on your teeth

14. they eat REAL food.

13. i can count on them to make me laugh

12. they have amazing sense of style and they are original in their own way.

11. they're LOUD.

10. they understand when i don't reply their text messages.

9. they call just to ask if i'm alive. ( i hope that's a good thing :)

8. they will pick me up just for a quick bite or a short retail therapy.

7. they help me choose from 15 different types of T-shirts of the same brand.

6. they would participate in mini fashion shows with me in the dressing room.

5. they would stand in the pharmacy for 10 mins debating over which hair dye colour suits me best.

4. they would willingly indulge in a little camwhoring session.

3. they would always listen when i rant or rave.

2. they've been there for me during my highest highs and my lowest lows.

1. after a day / night of hanging out with them, i'd postpone my beauty sleep just to type a blogpost especially dedicated to them.

you know who you are. and you rock my world :)

xoxo

2007-02-21T12:50:00.000+10:30

okay. someone has got me thrown into this world of addictive blogging. so enjoy my momentary addiction.

i was getting my little dose of gossip from Tinseltown and i found something disturbing.

remember the britney we love & hate ?

she did a natalie portman.

by herself.

sigh

2007-02-20T15:38:00.000+10:30

This Chinese New Year was the epitome of cuteness

my adorable nephew (and a mechanical cat if you didn't notice :)

meet Furball the lucky charm.

and the mascot of the year.

hope your Chinese new year was as precious as mine. :)

xoxo

2007-02-20T03:09:00.000+10:30

i have just checked out Justin Timberlake's new video.

pro :
1. justin looks hot.
2. scarlett looks hot.
3. it's different
4. the cars are hot.

cons :
1. i don't get it.
2. the lines are corny
3. the swearing was of no use
4. it's 9 minutes long.

here it is. you be the judge :)

lotsa love, xoxo.

2007-02-17T21:09:00.000+10:30

note to self : be aware.

i went to do a little bit of last minute shopping today at cold storage, times square.
after stacking up with cans of coke light, packets of m&ms for the cousins and a whole load of vitagen for my baby nephew, my sister and i pushed the god heavy trolley back to the car park.

Being the smart ass she is, she parked on the third floor when the supermarket was on LG. anyway, we headed for the elevators and noticed a guy in a bright yellow shirt had followed us all the way from the supermarket.

We didn't think much of it at first. So then we waited for the elevator. Got in, the dude got in too. And he didn't press a floor but we did. My sister and i looked at each other, the good thing about being related by blood, you can somehow send psychic messages through eye contact. SOMEHOW you can.

When we reached our floor, my sister and i rushed out and the guy followed behind us. So we quickened our pace. There were two options, a small flight of stairs or a ramp to get to our car which was parked mid level. We had to use the ramp cause we were rolling freaking heavy trolley. So we did. But the dude that was following us took the stairs and he was at the level before us.

By now, my sister and i were shit scared. We stuffed the purchases into the backseat, climbed into the car and locked the doors. Let's just say it's a good thing we didn't buy eggs. Then the dude that was following us came up to the car and started doing these weird hand gestures. Then he turned to our abandoned trolley, waved his hand....

and started to roll the trolley back to cold storage.
yes, he was the trolley collector dude for cold storage.
no, he wasn't wearing a uniform
and yes, he wasn't a psycho stalker.

lessons learnt :
1. don't do last minute Chinese new year shopping
2. don't park on higher floors when you know you're gonna do last minute Chinese new year shopping
3. don't go grocery shopping with your sister when you know you're gonna buy cartons of soft drinks which are insanely heavy.
4. don't be so 'perasan' to think that someone might actually want to stalk you. :D

------ but the day didn't turn out to be that bad. In the quick 45 minutes we were there, i was able to leave with an amazing find :) yes, i'm a shoeaholic.

happy chinese new year everyone! be careful out there. =)

lotsa love, xoxo

2007-02-17T21:03:00.000+10:30

I saw a nine year old boy smoking today.

And i had a thought : what's wrong with the world ?

2007-02-16T19:12:00.000+10:30

2007 baby.

It is officially SEVEN weeks into the new year. And the past weeks has been very promising for a great year ahead. The 180 degree in change of lifestyle for me got me stuck in a whirlwind for the first couple of weeks.

But now i know, everyone has to stop. and take a few deep breaths to take in all that is around them. And i have. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

My friends are still amazing. I have gotten closure over some mishaps over the year. And i made some pretty incredible friends.

So whatever your past weeks of 2007 has been for you, keep your head up. If things were bad, they can only get better.

If they were good, it's because you deserve it.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone. Eat, drink and be Merry :)

And because i'm trying to liven up my blog. i did a lil quiz today. These things are fun and somewhat accurate. :)

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

lotsa love, chrystal.

2007-01-03T20:52:00.000+10:30

i start college today. it wasn't until i got my student id that it hit me. wow. i get student discounts@ starbucks. :)

but that's not the point. the point was, i've made it here..i survived high school, and i'm ready to take the next step.

it was intimidating at first, it's hard to make friends and keep the ones you have as you get older. we all have to learn it the hard way. i'm going to miss my closest friends in high school because we will all be going our separate ways, i am going to miss cheap food.. (i can't live on mcDs everyday, it'll burn a hole!) but most of all, i'm going to miss my uniform and being able to drag myself to school looking like a zombie. you can't do that in college, you have no idea who you'll meet. :)

college here i come!

xoxo

2006-12-21T21:37:00.000+10:30

its the last two weeks of 2006 and..
sisters, relatives, new brothers have come and gone.

they left behind a smashing new computer with great speakers, box sets of tv series that would keep me occupied throughout the unoccupied days of the year, couple more bucks in my purse, little more cosmetics than I needed. but most of all, they left behind photographs.

photos. I love them. if I ever figure out who invented the camera / film and/or the digital camera i'll plant him/her a huge kiss! the photographs they left behind meant the most because whenever I look at them, it reminds me of the joy, fun, tears and laughter we've had over the past month that they've been here. also, the beautiful places we've been together.

photographs are the most priceless treasure ever. it reminds you of a person, a place in time. it doesn't get any better than that does it. although i'll pledge a full out war on candid photos. it just isn't flattering! :)

it has just been a crazy month. but it has been an amazing one, I got myself a brother. and besides a birth in the family, it's as good as it gets.

lotsa love.

xx

2006-12-07T12:13:00.000+10:30

It's one of those days!

I remember the time before SPM came to an end..I was so psyched planning my plans after the exam..Going out everyday, doing stuff. Turns out, there aren't that many places in KL to go to. It's only been two days...And I'm BORED!.

granted, I've only been doing things my sister wants to do. It's her week anyway, getting married and all. I guess that contributes to the 'bored' factor...I mean, one can only chose from 12 different types of roses for the centerpieces, chose 30 songs from a list of 12 000 songs, and trying to stay the same size so my bridesmaids dress that was made two months ago would still fit. Those are weddings for you, it's not all about the bride. :) (the bride probably takes up 90 % of the attention)

one thing that I'm really excited about is the fact that ALL my relatives are going to be in Kuala Lumpur. And I mean ALL! Some of which I haven't seen in ten to fifteen years. It's great. They're going to be flying in from all corners of the world, we might as well have an a summit here. :)

ok. I hear the majesty, the bride screaming for her bridesmaid. I have to run.

just want to give a shoutout to ALL the spm students..We've made it! :)

xoxo

2006-11-04T00:06:00.000+10:30

wanting what i can't have.

i want to get my exams over and done with.
it's so close i can taste it.
if i reached out my hands, I would feel it.
unfortunately, I am not prepared. not one little bit.
then why am I so eager to get it over and done with? It's the waiting that's excruciating.

had my prefects farewell party today. It's times like these when it just hits me between the eye that my high school life is coming closer to an end.

I'm excited for start a new chapter of my life. I am.
then why am I shaking with fear whenever I think about it ?

I need help.

2006-10-21T18:02:00.000+09:30

There are so many things in life that I missed out on.

I never got to play the harp as much as I wanted to.
I never got to see linkin park in concert two years ago. and it looks like there won't be another.
I never worked hard enough to be a mathematical genius.
I didn't continue ballet so I have the flexibility of a wooden ruler.
I never told anyone about my crushes - now I'm stuck pondering about the consequences if I did.
I didn't go far enough out into the ocean to catch the best waves because I was afraid of sharks
I didn't go parties on countless Friday nights because I wanted to be "the good girl."
I didn't seize the opportunity to do what I wanted to do - and I let other people take it from right under my nose.

why did I let all those opportunities go to waste? was I expecting something more? I just sat at home and waited for opportunities to come flying in.

truth is : life doesn't work that way. and when that someone said 'live life to the fullest', he meant it. sometimes when you want something really badly, you've just got to reach out and grab it. Sure, some people might get hurt in the process but the worst victim of all is yourself.

in countless events you'll feel the need to DO SOMETHING to make something else happen. but even as Newton put it. for every action there is a reaction. Think about it, however enormous my crush is on Brad Pitt, if I went up to him and told him of my undying love .. there would be consequences. (besides the fact of facing Angelina's wrath :)

For the more realistic things, we've got to take the first step or we'll never know. Should we care what other people say or think? Sure. we live on the same piece of land anyway , and we would definitely hear of their comments and critiques. We should CARE. but we can't let it get to us. cause if we do, we probably won't have the guts to do anything in life. People always have their own thoughts and views on things. Its human nature. I admit to have judged people by their covers before, but after awhile, I'm too swamped with my own life I totally forget about the hideous pair of boots that girl was wearing before. What use is it to me to remember it?

take it as a lesson learnt or wisdom shared.
reach for the stars.
life is too short.

lotsa love,
chrystal.